Those with which you share physical resemblances suffer from an inferiority complex that is disguised as a superiority, or God, complex. They are also vastly outnumbered, which makes them afraid. That fear, in their minds, must be assuaged by brutality and violence. A scared man is a dangerous man.
THAT is why the United States, and the sadistic white sadist that pilfered it, can neither apologize, nor ask "forgiveness."
The mere fact that you have the temerity to even broach the issue is testimony to a freakish intellectual courage lacking in your brethren.
But in more recent days, and passed probably any opportunity to do so, often the words from your column bring back those last words Mr. Parker spoke to me. I probably don't have an exact recall, but I have tried to convey the gist. But I didn't hear his words then; or I didn't comprehend them enough to have told him I was sorry before he shut the door on me.
Or even before that day I always had had the opportunity to tell him, but thought he had a chip on his shoulder---I thought it was a failing of his, not mine.
However you have helped me recognize it was my-our, as whites-failing and not Mr. Parker's mind.
And yet when I sat down that day in the big man's office---well I've never been known to do that. I can't recall preferring a bad grade to backing down to an obstinate teacher who told me something was so. So I knew when staring him down in his mind I was prejudice, perhaps not for bringing my lunch, he was speaking to all three of us whites as prejudice, I'm the way though that made the insinuation about that brought him to his feet, and I knew even then, full way what had brought him to his feet, and I knew full well, even then what had brought him charging at me was a racist remark, and so I backed down and admitted my remark was prejudicial comment.
Still I couldn't admit to myself I was wrong and everyone congratulating for my "wisdom" in diffusing the situation swelled my head to think Mr. Parker, please excuse me, 'a bad nigger" whom I had put into his place---and that, of itself, was even more indicative of just how I had looked at him with jaundiced; i.e. prejudiced eyes. Later experiences with Alkebulanian acquaintances of whom I was more closely intertwined, never pointed out that I had acted prejudicially, but they did point out that I could not not be, because I could not understand what prejudice action against a black person was. If I've never experienced the hurt in the way they have felt being hurt for no reason other than their perceived color then that, in itself prevented me from not being not prejudice.
I have of course been with black persons being rejected from some experience or another because of their color, and I have become angry on their behalf. And yet that, in itself is a prejudiced assumption that has been pointed out to me in the past.
And yet I remained ignorant of what I knew was correct and so I might say it's not my intellectual courage, but more your intellectual perspicuity that has led to the writing of this article and my failure to not understand the manner that I had offended Mr. Parker.
I knew full way I had offended him, but I blamed it, at the time, on a failure in him, not one in me.
Any courage to this admission I have to lay at your doorstep because it has only been through encountering your carefully selected framenology that has enabled me to understand what Alkebulanian acquaintances have been telling me for more than seventy years.
Much of the credit, even though a foundation had been laid, has to be the way your words have implanted themselves upon the foundation I never quite comprehended because of the ignorance of the worst assumption every "white liberal" makes when he thinks he is not, himself, guilty of any prejudice. And if for no other reason, white liberals probably owe Alkebulanians an even greater apology than the blatant racist who despises himself too much to not be racist.
And to that degree, to some extent, even this comment could be construed as no more than what I said to Parker. But I assure you, I recognize now, he was not at fault for being aggrieved, I was at fault for feeling he shouldn't have been.
Those with which you share physical resemblances suffer from an inferiority complex that is disguised as a superiority, or God, complex. They are also vastly outnumbered, which makes them afraid. That fear, in their minds, must be assuaged by brutality and violence. A scared man is a dangerous man.
THAT is why the United States, and the sadistic white sadist that pilfered it, can neither apologize, nor ask "forgiveness."
The mere fact that you have the temerity to even broach the issue is testimony to a freakish intellectual courage lacking in your brethren.
Of course I did not apologize to Mr. Parker.
But in more recent days, and passed probably any opportunity to do so, often the words from your column bring back those last words Mr. Parker spoke to me. I probably don't have an exact recall, but I have tried to convey the gist. But I didn't hear his words then; or I didn't comprehend them enough to have told him I was sorry before he shut the door on me.
Or even before that day I always had had the opportunity to tell him, but thought he had a chip on his shoulder---I thought it was a failing of his, not mine.
However you have helped me recognize it was my-our, as whites-failing and not Mr. Parker's mind.
And yet when I sat down that day in the big man's office---well I've never been known to do that. I can't recall preferring a bad grade to backing down to an obstinate teacher who told me something was so. So I knew when staring him down in his mind I was prejudice, perhaps not for bringing my lunch, he was speaking to all three of us whites as prejudice, I'm the way though that made the insinuation about that brought him to his feet, and I knew even then, full way what had brought him to his feet, and I knew full well, even then what had brought him charging at me was a racist remark, and so I backed down and admitted my remark was prejudicial comment.
Still I couldn't admit to myself I was wrong and everyone congratulating for my "wisdom" in diffusing the situation swelled my head to think Mr. Parker, please excuse me, 'a bad nigger" whom I had put into his place---and that, of itself, was even more indicative of just how I had looked at him with jaundiced; i.e. prejudiced eyes. Later experiences with Alkebulanian acquaintances of whom I was more closely intertwined, never pointed out that I had acted prejudicially, but they did point out that I could not not be, because I could not understand what prejudice action against a black person was. If I've never experienced the hurt in the way they have felt being hurt for no reason other than their perceived color then that, in itself prevented me from not being not prejudice.
I have of course been with black persons being rejected from some experience or another because of their color, and I have become angry on their behalf. And yet that, in itself is a prejudiced assumption that has been pointed out to me in the past.
And yet I remained ignorant of what I knew was correct and so I might say it's not my intellectual courage, but more your intellectual perspicuity that has led to the writing of this article and my failure to not understand the manner that I had offended Mr. Parker.
I knew full way I had offended him, but I blamed it, at the time, on a failure in him, not one in me.
Any courage to this admission I have to lay at your doorstep because it has only been through encountering your carefully selected framenology that has enabled me to understand what Alkebulanian acquaintances have been telling me for more than seventy years.
Much of the credit, even though a foundation had been laid, has to be the way your words have implanted themselves upon the foundation I never quite comprehended because of the ignorance of the worst assumption every "white liberal" makes when he thinks he is not, himself, guilty of any prejudice. And if for no other reason, white liberals probably owe Alkebulanians an even greater apology than the blatant racist who despises himself too much to not be racist.
And to that degree, to some extent, even this comment could be construed as no more than what I said to Parker. But I assure you, I recognize now, he was not at fault for being aggrieved, I was at fault for feeling he shouldn't have been.
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